What's the point?

What's the point in even trying anymore? I am so sick of working my butt off at my job and then trying to keep a marriage together with someone who doesn't care about me. He doesn't even care a little bit. All husband wants to do is talk about himself and how his day went. He doesn't give a crap about how my day went, or how I feel about anything. Just like this morning we took the kids to my grandparents for the day. I didn't get to visit with them at all because all husband did was talk about what has been going on with him. I can't say anything on here except that it is a legal matter now and if any info gets out they could put me in prison too. It is not fair at all that I feel that I am being dragged through the dirt. I just want to crawl in a hole and get away from it all. I don't know what to do anymore. I am fed up and I can't take anymore shit off of anyone. I put up with a lot of bs at work and then I come home and have to compete with a television. I have to compete with wrestling stars because they are more interesting than I am. I don't want to be somewhere that I'm not wanted. I just don't understand. I guess I'm not supposed to. I am just ready to be able to be the person I am not who others want me to be. I like to go to bars, have a couple of drinks, and maybe dance a couple of dances. Well, I totally understand that with my husbands job, the bars are off limits to him. But they aren't for me. I am not much on gambling because if I am going to spend 20 bucks then I am going to spend it on something that I enjoy doing. Husband asked me this morning what is wrong with me. I just told him that I don't feel good. He said that he could see that, but it seemed like I wasn't happy with him. I just told him that nothing was wrong, absolutly nothing. He said I know your lying to me. I said yeah, I'm lying but I'm not going to talk about it. He doesn't want to hear anything that I have to say anyother time so why would this morning be any different.
I miss my ex though. When he and I were together, I could talk about anything and he would just listen. He never interrupted me or anything, unless it was to give me a hug and calm me down. Husband doesn't do that. He just sits there and tunes me out. I just want to be happy. And in this situation, I'm not happy at all. I should have never let him come back home. Oh well, life's a bitch sometimes.